morning light

you stare into space with glazed eyes
i don't think you see much of anything
anymore
i miss your fresh and pillowed lips
the sorrow in your kiss
well i watch you while you're gone
such beauty in your misery
i never knew deceit could look
as good as you
while your mind is somewhere else
i've stayed beside your absence
but i'd go anywhere to find you
again
instead i lay here in screaming silence
it's deafening
i watch the hazy morning sunlight
seep through the window as you sleep
my eyes have been burning for weeks
i miss your restless hands all over me
you could protect me from anything
my tongue has gone blue
when you suffer i suffer too
nails and skin and sweat
whimpering during dreams
never remembered
the path is not so long
if someone walks beside you
you can push me away
as you did just yesterday
you are weak i feel it
but you've given me enough strength
in seventeen months
to last us both a lifetime
so if you refuse to fight
i will just have to do it
for you