buncha bullshit

when i saw you it was your eyes that pulled me in
filled with emotion i wanted to know
i had to turn around for a second look
now i sit here all alone trying to let you go
i know you're leaving but i would wait for you again
i lied when i said my heart still aches
it simply stopped beating
i look back on all these mistakes
and wonder why they keep repeating
all those words i couldn't speak
i don't think i ever told you this
but when i hear your voice my knees get weak
i wish i could tell you how i feel
that for the first time in a while
i thought something could be real
that each night i go to bed
i wish you could be laying there
so you could kiss me as i fall asleep
and run your fingers through my hair
that i think about you all the time
and you don't even know it
that deep down i wanted you to be mine
but had too much pride to show it
that sometimes i stay awake at night
hoping that you'll call
and it was the little things you did
that made me start to fall
that i wanted to know you better
i wanted to see you more
and i wish you felt the same
so i could say i had something worth waiting for

late nights turn into early mornings
behind each smile lies a story
there's shattered dreams and broken trust
secret love and hidden lust
each look must have a meaning
never sleeping always dreaming
we are always trying to forget the past
so tip your hat or raise your glass
to promises and fate
to life's irony you love to hate
always trying to leave and escape
but never knowing why
those drunken words were just a lie
but they painted such a pretty future
if you'd do anything not to lose her
then maybe it's best to show it
you're missing out and you don't even know it
but we all just laugh it off tonight
as these drinks make the future fade from sight
if it never came i think it'd be alright
so we stay awake into the morning light
and wish time didn't exist at all
if we don't fall asleep
we don't have to wake up
to those pretty things we'll never keep

i listened to my heart sink
it wasn't a great sound
why is it that when i start to think
my world turns upside down
there's something about it
that makes me weak in the knee
i don't know how to feel anything
if i could just open my eyes to see
it's not like me it's just a lie
what once was will never stay to be
when i count on that star-infested sky
it's okay for hope to go astray
try to find a better day
hope flies off on it's own and then
we all make excuses that we say
"love" slips off our tongue
too frequent and much too soon
just like the solemn faces
that stand examining the moon
as if we could retrace it
and go back to the truth
is it so much to ask for
when i hear it from afar
just sittin waiting honestly
on that hopeful shooting star
we are all much too blind to see
this world even start to fall apart